1 Month of Life
Before you were born, I set you apart.” Jeremiah 1:5
I am not even sure where to begin with telling you how much Ronnie and I’s life has changed in the last month. But life is that much sweeter because of our precious babygirl. On February 26th, 2019 our perfect heaven sent baby girl was born at 3:36 p.m. and I can honestly say that in that moment, I knew that this little baby was sent from God.
Monday the 25th was like any regular monday evening- we had dinner and sat down to watch the blues game on TV. I decided to try to pull out all the tricks I can because I didn’t think I could wait until the following Monday to meet her. So I ate pineapple and bounced on the exercise ball for about 30 minutes and decided to go take a bath to relax. After the bath I figured I would lather by belly up with some lavender lotion and lay on the bed while Ronnie worked on homework. I laid there and dreamed of who you would be, what you would look like, and meeting you for the first time. I played some of my favorite gospel music and recorded you moving in my belly. It was almost like I had a mommas intuition that, that would be the last night you were going to be in my belly. Around 11 we went to bed- your daddy kissed my belly good night & he fell fast asleep. I was trying to get comfortable until around 12 but I was feeling lots of pressure. I finally dozed off around 1 a.m. until 2:45 a.m. and woke up to extreme pressure and I timed my contractions and honestly they were so close together I had no clue how to even time them. My stomach would get hard, and then soften, hard and soften. So I figured the hospital would tell me to take a shower anyways to see if they stopped, so I did. I was barely able to shower because I felt so much of a change in my body and belly. I called my doctor- and he said that all the signs I had mentioned was in fact labor- that I should head to the hospital. I woke your Daddy up— he took what seemed like forever to get ready because I don’t think he thought for a second that this was the real deal. He even asked me if this was real?! I said, “ I sure hope so!” We then packed up the car, said good bye to your big brother Bocephus and then headed to the hospital. We joked on the way that we should try to have you at a Chick-fil-a because you get a guaranteed job and food free for life. What an awesome deal?!! We also couldn’t believe that if this was in fact the real deal, we may be holding you soon. It almost felt like a dream- but the contractions on the other hand. They hurt, ALOT!
Around 4:30 a.m. we were checked into our own room where we were going to deliver our little blessing. I was only progressed to about a 3 at that point- so the nurses wanted me to walk, bounce on the ball, get in the shower, and try to do all we could to get you to drop some more and me to dialate some more. Daddy and I walked the halls, ate some food, and kept giggling and kind of freaking out becuase it was really happening. Later on Tuesday, we would be your mommy and daddy. My doctor came in around 9 am to check me and I was only at a 4 at that point, and he looked at me and said, “ Lets have a baby today!” So we got hooked up to some pitocin and he broke my water. Once that happened, there was no looking back. Contractions were hurting more, and I was going to be a momma so very soon.
I was able to sit up and rough out the pain until about noon, when I finally could not take the contractions because I was getting no break in between. They were constant, and the pain is so indescribable. I decided to get an epidural and hopefully have you sooner than later. Once I got the epidural- I felt so much better for about 20 minutes and then the pain was coming back and I felt so much pressure that I kept telling the nurses that you were right there. They told me to just keep breathing and they would check me in a bit. Finally after about 2 hours they checked me and I went from a 4 to a 9 really quickly. They wanted me to push a time or two before phoning the dr and I did, and they were surprised that you were crowning. So they decided to call the Dr. & he immediatly came up and got prepped. Within minutes I was pushing about 3 times- and the next thing I heard was- she is HERE! She is tiny & has a lot of hair. I remember looking at your Daddies face- and he had tears in his eyes. I remember reaching my arms out to grab you & I was physically shaking because I could not believe the miracle that just happened. They laid your little 6 lb. 14 oz body on my chest & I cried. I could not believe my eyes- you were here. 9 months of what I thought was the hardest time of my life- growing you and keeping you safe. & my baby girl- perfectly healthy and so gorgeous- you were finally in my arms. It was almost like my biggest victory- I could finally hold my prize from Heaven. You laid there and looked at me- as I had tears in my eyes- you were so quiet and just gazed up at your momma. I cried some more, kissed you, and held you for an hour- just soaking up all of your sweetness. I have never in my life been more proud to have been a woman, your momma, your Daddies wife, and see my greatest accomplishment. You my baby girl- are my grandest adventure, my best friend, love of Daddy & I’s life- and this last month has been by far the BEST month of our lives.
Breastfeeding, to sleepless nights, to crying, to happiness, to giggling with your Daddy, to seeing your Daddy gush over how much he loves you, seeing how much everyone loves you, to seeing your little fingers and toes, your giggles in your sleep, your facial expressions, the joy you bring us, the teensiness of your little self, to the love you bring us- Marcy May Ruess- Daddy and Mommy love you more than you can imagine. Thank you for being the best part of the both of us- and letting us love you more than we can fathom. Parenting is an adventure, and I am so thankful to have Ronnie by my side- to show you how to be loved fiercely. I promise to always best the best momma I can be- to cherish you, love you, be there for you no matter what. Show you the love a little girl deserves. I just know that the best is yet to come with making memories with you and Daddy. We love you!
Tonight on March 26th- Daddy & I went to eat to celebrate your month birthday- and we got carrot cake to celebrate the best part of our lives- YOU!
The last night that you my dear- was in my belly.
February 26th, 2019
Marcy May Ruess
6 lbs & 14 oz
20 Inches long
Marcy May is ONE MONTH
7 lbs of pure love & chubbiness